Harsh day, it was.
"Life is like a penis; it seems so short but long when it gets hard."
This is quoted from a friend of mine. It makes sense, but only in a perverted way.
Today was one of those days where you feel like everything seems to be going so wrong, and there's nothing you can do to make it better. I do not know how to put it out in words, but the kind of feeling i had in gut was that of a person would have when a close relative died. Its as if someone was pinching your heart, and sucked your soul right out of you. And it hurts, badly.
Its 3:13PM now, but it seems as if it were 10PM because of the rain. I don't get why emo people love the rain, and creates phrases like, ''I like walking in the rain because then no one can see me crying.'' Isn't it annoying? I mean the rain. It goes pit-pat, pit-pat, pit-pat, against your window. Although it does make a country like Singapore much cooling, but the sound, it just does something to my veins.
I'm annoyed. By everything. I will break this keyboard, if someone disturbs me by calling my name, one more time.
I know this post sounds kind of depressing, but do not worry, my readers, I will feel better soon, i hope. Cause the family stress, school stress, and relationship stress I am facing now, its building up on my shoulders, but luckily I'm getting the hang of it. I feel like pulling out my hair, and screaming at the top of my voice right now. Will everything be alright soon?
I realise that what I'm saying totally doesnt make any sense, so I shall shut up now. I guess I'll just blog again later tomorrow.
Good day to all.
Holy crap.
The exams are here already. Time flew past, and zrroooooomm! 4 months have gone by (soon to be 5) since the first day of school. Its a really scary thing, having to know that you only have two more years till the 'O' level examinations. Its just like primary school. You were wandering aimlessly around the new compound, holding your pee, finding the toliet, and soon, 6 years passed and you are now in the school hall having your final papers for PSLE. But, who cares about PSLE now anyway? Its the 'O' levels that matter much more.
'O' levels are still ''really far'' away, so i shant talk about that first. The Midyear examinations have already started, and i barely started revising. The EL papers were okay, 'Cept for the Editing in Paper II. Ms Song Ziyan is a tricky one. As for the HCL papers, i was totally relieved. I was expecting something much, much more difficult. But luckily, it wasnt as hard as I thought it would be. I completed it on time, and, I'm quite confident that I'll pass. Although I might not score as high as i want to. But, its all over now, no point regretting. :)
I find the HCL paper really meaningful. As i was doing it, i learned a few lessons; (besides the fact that if i had studied earlier, i would have gotten an additional 20 marks or so..) which were all very motivational. Like, there's this story that goes:
There's this man, Nick, who works in a factory. He is a very dilligent worker, and is well liked by everyone. He's only flaw is-that he is too pessimistic. So one day, all the workers were rushing afterwork to their CEO's birthday banquet. But unfortunately for Nick, he was stuck in the freezer. He yelled, he screamed, he punched the door, but it all came down to nothing. So there, he was, hands swollen, throat hoarse, and there was nothing he can do. He then thought to himself: "I'm gonna die for sure. There's no one else in this building except for me.." He then took out a piece of paper and started writing his will.
The very next day, the workers came back to see a dead Nick on the floor. All of them were taken aback. Not because of the dead Nick on the floor, but because Nick wasnt even supposed to die. Why? Because the freezer he was locked in, was not on at all. The temperature set was only 25 degree celcius. So any normal human being would be able to survive in that room. So Nick couldnt have possibly "frozen" to death.
The moral of the story is that how you think, can really affect how things work out. Take Nick for example. He was really determined on the thought that he would die. But he never once thought about the positive side. He's thinking affected the way his body worked. His body reacted by letting him "feel" cold. Why i put it as ''feel'' because he really isnt feeling the coldness, its just his mindset.
Why I'm telling you this story? The reason is simple. Please, do not be pessimistic about the upcoming exams. Its not too late. Start working hard now, and dont stop looking on the bright side. I hope that all of us would get into Sec 3 with the best of our abilities, alright? :)
Thats all for today.
